So recently I’ve found myself unable to sleep….not that I’m not tired, I just can’t turn my brain off long enough to actually close my eyes and sleep. Now you might be thinking wow, she must be dealing with some interesting, intriguing, life changing issues or topics to keep her mind going at all hours of the day. Unfortunately, that my friends would be where you are wrong.
Truth is there is nothing in-particular keeping me up….not that I can pinpoint that is. Every morning its something else that grabs my attention and holds my mind prisoner until I literally force myself to lie in bed and force my eyes closed until I eventually fall asleep (which only lasts an hour or so before I awake again another thought barging its way into my gray matter). I do this for several days until my body can no longer take it and I actually pass-out somewhere in my apartment and sleep like the dead for almost 10 hours or more. I know its unhealthy (and it's getting worse), but I just can’t find something to fix this dilemma, and the distractions keep increasing.
For instance, at the beginning it was reading stories or books online. This came around when I finally found the free kindle ap for my ipod as well as several vampire/zombie and all around action based stories to read on the kindle site. I can actually claim I’ve read 6 different stories within 5 to 6 days. When I start its really hard to stop.
The other thing I’ve found increasing its occupation on my sleep time is online television/movies and etc. Amazon’s Instant movie thing is killing me with a great selection of Foreign Films to rent for cheap that otherwise I would have to buy or watch on some virus infested site. Other sites like Hulu & Crunchyroll also entice me to watch shows online. (okay maybe entice is a strong word but I'm drawn like a moth to a flame LOL).
When those don’t interest me I find myself editing photos and not the photos I should be editing (like recent shoots or photo-trips I take) no I find myself editing old photos that I forgot about or never got around to…like so:
I think these are almost around 1-2 years old. I mean really.....how I even found these on my computer amaze me.
Then there’s drawing, not always on my tablet so I end up sticking it in my side drawer with other doodles. This often coincides with my writing….be it poetry (which is often really bad) or Role Playing Game stories (which if I ever find another good writing site that’s active….I’ll be addicted to again), or some other story that I’ve started on and have been nursing to completion. Seriously, I love interactive writing, it’s a serious emotion release. Several of my character ideas come there. Such as these beauties of mine:
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| Akira & Ciram |
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| Gabriel |
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| Sarayi |
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| Sarayi with love interest Arthur (a friends charrie) |
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| Sarayi & Miecal (modernized) |
If I don't occupy myself with these activities I will probably just surf the internet for stuff to watch on youtube, music to find/listen to, or read about interesting topics. After that I may start cleaning or doing laundry, fixing the bed. Etc. I mean seriously who does their casual clothes laundry at 3 a.m.? *raises hand* Sorry neighbors downstairs.
*Face plant* Even as I type I feel exhausted but my mind just won’t shut down. Its frustrating.
Which leads to my strange quote of the post (I don’t post enough to have a quote of the day or even the month so :P). From a recent story I read one insomniac morning....thus says a vampire story author (and no it wasn’t twilight but might has well been).
“When you dance with the devil, the devil doesn’t change. The devil changes you."
I found the line interesting therefore I share. So, as the sun rises I will now go and force myself to lie in bed hopefully to fall asleep soon. (-_-)
Do you ever have those days, weeks, or months when you are hit with insomnia?
If so, what do you do to help get to sleep? I would love some really good suggestions. (and no medication isn’t really what I’m looking for) lol
Ciao Ciao
